Simplicity

Today at work I was thinking a lot. THere has been somethings go on at work that I don't always agree with. Things that hurt me and make me angry. Things I get my self so worked up over.

The client I was working with does not speak, is fully wheel chair bound, has to have their food blended and spoon fed, and has to have full assistance with personal care.

I was doing her physio (her stretches) with her today. Her physio consists of rolling around on a soft mat just to get stretched out and have a break from her chair. Today's game was putting a ball on her stomache and tapping it while calling her name...to her nothing could have made her world better. She laughed and laughed and laughed. I had to do everything in my power not to cry.

I see this simplicity in her life. And I think of my own. How I have all these issues, that when I stop and think of her situation, don't seem so big. Why are we this way??

My thought of the day. Thanks for making me think girlie!

here I sit

Here I sit after yet another crazy weekend. Cory and I along with a great group of friends did quite a bit of renevations and a lot of cleaning on the house in Morden...wow it was a mess. Funniest part...So I was washing one of the bedroom walls and it was gross (Even minus the glow in the dark paint...) Well cory looks in to see what I am doing and asks "What is that white spot on the wall?" my response "where I have washed". We scrubbed walls, roofs,vaccummed, burned stuff and had actually a lot of fun. We are doing it all again next weekend and would love more help!

LIfe has been going interesting...I am VERY glad to be done at SBC. IT was great while it lasted but ya. Work is going well. I love working with each of my clients, they are all so unique and special...I wish all the staff could see that!

College and Careers tonite! Woot WOOT...nothing tomorrow night, care groups wednesday night, youth Thursday night, work all weekend on the house and back to the routine...wonder if life will ever calm down...

Cassandra

1 Corinthians 10:13

NIV: No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Message: No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he'll never let you be pushed past your limit; he'll always be there to help you come through it.

NLT: The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.

I cant say much online, however I described our situation to one person as this. Just when you think things cant get much worse, they did. and just when we thought they couldnt get worse than this, they did. And it really continues on.

This verse has been quoted to me a few times and yes there is comfort in it but it is upsetting too because I am not sure if I can handle any more! Please just pray for me and Cory, if you want more details or such email me...

Holding on to Him,
Cassandra

The Second "R"

Must be on the theme of R's right now lol

I love what the community of SBC does. I love the connection between students, the connection between students and prof, the connection between everyone. It is SWEET! However, because SBC is such a huge believer in the role of community and SBC life...where does that leave commuters and part time students?











Dictionary.com defines the term reject in numerous ways:

Reject: verb (used with object)
1. to refuse to have, take, recognize, etc.
2. to refuse to accept (someone or something); rebuff:
3. to discard as useless or unsatisfactory:
4. to cast out or eject; vomit.
5. to cast out or off.

Yes some of these definitions are harsh and unrealistic to my situation at the present time. However, I have know looked at this from both sides of the spectrum. I look at definition #1 "to refuse to have" and that one made me think. So this evening I did what I believe to be my part and I went to the dorm. I was told, " i just checked facebook, but I am busy now" I was also told "What are YOU doing here" I wanted to make sure that I was not Refusing to have community from SBC, However these 2 comments made me lean towards the second definition of "to refuse to accept"

I am not really going to say anything about definitions 3 and 4, but number 5 "To cast out"...

Thats where I sit

~C!

Realizing

I was talking to a girl from school yesterday and she made this point.

"The dorm Community is great at SBC...however that Community ends the second you leave."

That point rang so true for me for a couple reasons...

1) My wedding: Out of 60 invited SBC related, I believe no more than 10 showed up...yes some of them told me that they were unable to make it, but so many said yes they were coming and did not show up...

2)Living off Campus: You know I live a 5 minute drive from dorm. yet that 5 minutes might as well be 5 hours.

I can already tell that my community this year is not going to be sbc. It is going to be elsewhere. THis thought hurts to realize but ya.

My thinking and musings for today...

Cassandra

Curve Ball

Ok so this post actually has nothing to do about baseball but ya. So as off 10am this morning I had planned that I was taking a full couse load at SBC, graduating this coming april, working one or 2 days a week and going to fully enjoy my last year at sbc...well plans changed!

So SBC changed the way they do financing. Everyother year, I have only started to apply for my loan once I knew how much I needed...makes sense to me. Well this year they are saying that everything must be paid for by September 22 or else I dont go..

Well the short of it is...my loan is not going to be through by than!!

So what does this mean you may ask? It means that I am going to go into SBC tomorrow morning to see what they are willing to do.

If I cant be at SBC this semester, I am going to still do my practicum this semester and maybe one more course, so I still have part time status so I don't have to pay on my loans (ya I know, working the system!) I would than start taking my paraeducator course through red River distance Ed, while working full time at MPRC.

I am thinking this all means that we would potentially be in steinbach an extra year...


I am so thankful for "My Rock", Cory, who is trying his best at keeping me sane...He is incredible at it!

Pray for me, I am confused and unsure.

Holding on to Him,
Cassandra

Update

Well here I sit after sleeping till noon today. I love my days off. Summer is going good. I miss camp. I miss horses. I miss the campers. I miss all of it! But for the most part, I love my job. I am working at a day program where most of the clients are mute, and require assistances for everything from eating to the washroom. It is so tiring and draining but it is also a lot of fun. This coming week I get to go to the city and get my nails done! I am pumped! I have got to go out for coffee, go to movies, go three wheeling and other fun activities. But I still love camp and wonder if I will ever get back to it...

I am beginning to get really excited about our Guyana trip in December/January. I have started to put money away for it and have really started to think about it!! I am pumped. It will be hard leaving Cory for that long but I want to go and make a difference as well. With Guyana..I have also began crunching courses to try and figure out what I have to take next year... It is challenging.

Last night, Cory went to his first bombers game! It was a disappointing win with the bombers giving up 14 points in about 5 minutes. But it was still fun, I think he enjoyed it...I did! Tonite we are off to Taylor Swift. I have been anxiously awaiting this since before Christmas!! I am so pumped!!

Wedding update..we are sitting at 104 positive confirmations so that is really exciting...still missing lots though...common people! I am getting more and more excited. Went and order and started to pay for our wedding rings a few nights ago! We are in need of someone to do sound however...any offers?!

Anyways I should get going! Hope all your summers are going good! Feel free to come and visit, calll or email...i am lonely!

Cass