"I don't see what the big deal is"
"I promised to call, but I forgot"
"Your feelings don't matter"
"be open and honest with me...(5 lines later) or i actually have people over ttyl"
I am really beginning to hate this world! I am relearning that maybe friends are just a waste of my effort.
About Me
- Cassandra
- First off, I am a child of God. One who struggles, yet overcomes. One who feels weary, yet fulfilled. One who deals a lot with finding out who I truely am, yet I am loved!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Monday, May 31, 2010
Life
Life is the shits right now. I am being frank. If you don't like it, stop reading now, its going to get worse.
So moving to Morden...I am thinking overall...bad idea. Maybe I was to idealistic when it came to my big dreams of getting to know all of Cory's family better. This is not happening. Every time we try to get a hold of someone, they don't answer.
Morden feels like a bubble. That bubble really being my house. I have a few "friends" in Manitou. But I am trying to be very careful in how much time I spend with them as I find them to be a bad influence on me rather than a postive one. Otherwise, all my "friends" aka the people I hang out with because Cory does are decent people (for the most part) but I really would love a girl friend that I could be really with.
However, got to love friends from Steinbach who promised to keep in touch, promised to visit and well thats as far as they have gotten
I do, however, love my job. I love the people I support, and work with. However, I hate the hours. At least there is no abuse or gossip at my job. And the word God is used on a nearly daily basis in a proper way.
Dentists. What a load of crap. My teeth hurt so bad but what can I do except wreck my stomach by taking pain meds because they are cheaper than a dentist.
Depression. Some days I would simply sit at home, not talk to the world, not see the world. Sadly I have to work.
Cassandra
So moving to Morden...I am thinking overall...bad idea. Maybe I was to idealistic when it came to my big dreams of getting to know all of Cory's family better. This is not happening. Every time we try to get a hold of someone, they don't answer.
Morden feels like a bubble. That bubble really being my house. I have a few "friends" in Manitou. But I am trying to be very careful in how much time I spend with them as I find them to be a bad influence on me rather than a postive one. Otherwise, all my "friends" aka the people I hang out with because Cory does are decent people (for the most part) but I really would love a girl friend that I could be really with.
However, got to love friends from Steinbach who promised to keep in touch, promised to visit and well thats as far as they have gotten
I do, however, love my job. I love the people I support, and work with. However, I hate the hours. At least there is no abuse or gossip at my job. And the word God is used on a nearly daily basis in a proper way.
Dentists. What a load of crap. My teeth hurt so bad but what can I do except wreck my stomach by taking pain meds because they are cheaper than a dentist.
Depression. Some days I would simply sit at home, not talk to the world, not see the world. Sadly I have to work.
Cassandra
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Life
Well We are settled in in our own house in Morden. The journey has been an interesting one I tell you. Our roof started leaking with all this rain, bathroom renovations are costin us more than expected, and the lists keeps going. We have had people over most nights or been at peoples places most nights, kind of nice, though I wonder how long these invitations will last?!
I am still jobless...if I dont here anything back from anywhere before Monday, I start applying in Winkler. I am getting so bored during the days. So ya.
We are pumped for the youth retreat this weekend. I have had a lot of fun planning it! I am very excited for our concert of prayer that we are doing friday night. THat has been a lot of planning but a lot of fun. I really hope God uses it big!
What else, life is decent right now. Would love to have more company, more emails, more messages.
Holding onto HIm,
Cassandra
I am still jobless...if I dont here anything back from anywhere before Monday, I start applying in Winkler. I am getting so bored during the days. So ya.
We are pumped for the youth retreat this weekend. I have had a lot of fun planning it! I am very excited for our concert of prayer that we are doing friday night. THat has been a lot of planning but a lot of fun. I really hope God uses it big!
What else, life is decent right now. Would love to have more company, more emails, more messages.
Holding onto HIm,
Cassandra
Monday, April 26, 2010
Fly
Here I stand, looking up at a huge grey mountain
The power of despair and the dread of change overwhelms me.
Life has set me spinning, with things out of my control.
Here I stand, looking up at a huge grey mountain.
Put on your wings and fly
Fly above and beyond the mountain
Beyond the dark and sleepless nights
Take comfort oh my child.
April 25/10
The power of despair and the dread of change overwhelms me.
Life has set me spinning, with things out of my control.
Here I stand, looking up at a huge grey mountain.
Put on your wings and fly
Fly above and beyond the mountain
Beyond the dark and sleepless nights
Take comfort oh my child.
April 25/10
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Its a Great Day to be Alive
"And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?"
Excert from "ITS A GREAT DAY TO BE ALIVE" TRAVIS TRITT
So this was the song that Tim and Kayla walked out of the church to at their wedding. I had the huge privilledge of being one of her bridesmaids. It was a special day. Congratulations guys! We love you both!
However, this song has been stuck in my head ever since than. So I challenged myself to this, and I challenge my readers/listeners/stalkers on here to do the same thing. Find at least one (or 3 or 562) reasons each day that make it truely a great day to be alive.
On Saturday my reason was because I have the best husband ever. To see a new marriage starting reminded me of my special day and made me actually cry when I thought back and really realized that was the best decision I have ever made!
Today's reason was friends. I stopped at one of my best friends places from Manitou today and realized how much I missed her and her family!Can't wait to move back there.
I have a feeling that tomorrow's reason is going to do with something connected to, Oh I dont know...my birhtday?!
I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?"
Excert from "ITS A GREAT DAY TO BE ALIVE" TRAVIS TRITT
So this was the song that Tim and Kayla walked out of the church to at their wedding. I had the huge privilledge of being one of her bridesmaids. It was a special day. Congratulations guys! We love you both!
However, this song has been stuck in my head ever since than. So I challenged myself to this, and I challenge my readers/listeners/stalkers on here to do the same thing. Find at least one (or 3 or 562) reasons each day that make it truely a great day to be alive.
On Saturday my reason was because I have the best husband ever. To see a new marriage starting reminded me of my special day and made me actually cry when I thought back and really realized that was the best decision I have ever made!
Today's reason was friends. I stopped at one of my best friends places from Manitou today and realized how much I missed her and her family!Can't wait to move back there.
I have a feeling that tomorrow's reason is going to do with something connected to, Oh I dont know...my birhtday?!
Monday, March 1, 2010
Music Monday
I had trouble trying to find a song to fit Music Monday and for some reason Amazing Grace came to mind. I have nothing significant or deep to say but I believe that the words speak for themselves! I pray that this song will bless you today!
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
'Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
I shall but walk always with You,
Your heart forever mine,
I'll live in Christ, so pure and true,
Until the end of time.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
The world shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun refuse to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Shall be forever mine.
When we've been here ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun!
We've no less days to sing god's praise,
Then when we'd first begun.
Go Bless-God Bless
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
'Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
I shall but walk always with You,
Your heart forever mine,
I'll live in Christ, so pure and true,
Until the end of time.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
The world shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun refuse to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Shall be forever mine.
When we've been here ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun!
We've no less days to sing god's praise,
Then when we'd first begun.
Go Bless-God Bless
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Ever have those moments...?
EVER HAVE THOSE MOMENTS WHEN...
(In no particular order)
1) Your body tells you you are beyond exhausted yet your mind says keep going?
2) Your mind tells you to pray for some random person. For me this happened at work today, I was called to pray for each one of the people I work with and for specific things.
3) You want to stand up and yell and cheer because Canada CREAMED Russia in hockey tonite!
4) Where you so badly want to be cuddled yet you want to resist with all your might?
5) You feel your life is nearly pointless...get up, go to work, come home, go to bed?!
Ya just some random thoughts and musings...
Cassandra
(In no particular order)
1) Your body tells you you are beyond exhausted yet your mind says keep going?
2) Your mind tells you to pray for some random person. For me this happened at work today, I was called to pray for each one of the people I work with and for specific things.
3) You want to stand up and yell and cheer because Canada CREAMED Russia in hockey tonite!
4) Where you so badly want to be cuddled yet you want to resist with all your might?
5) You feel your life is nearly pointless...get up, go to work, come home, go to bed?!
Ya just some random thoughts and musings...
Cassandra
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