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Hey Guys,
MERRY CHRISTMAS FIRST OFF!! I hope your holiday season is going very great and you are finding time for friends and family! I know that this Christmas holiday has been amazing as I have started dating my friend, Cory! We have had a blast together and for some reason, I am dreading going back to school...I wonder why?! :P.

Holidays have actually been really good even besides that. I have spent a few nights on the ice, even though it has been freaking cold, yet a lot of fun to just get out there and skate for an hour or so. I have enjoyed being able to sleep in, and just do what I want when I want and not have to worry about deadlines! I love that. NO ASSIGNED READING!! WOOT WOOT. Though I am super pumped for my courses next semester.

Well tomorrow night, I am having a few people over for a Christmas party and hopefully a good game of Catan! or Rockband as that seems to be the thing we do almost every night this holiday season! Good times! and than Christmas Eve I am headed to Cory's parents house for supper and than church in the evening and than Cory and I are going to do our Christmas afterwards (I am guessing). I am pretty excited for the next few days. Wow I love Christmas!





God Bless you all and all the best this holiday season!!
Holding on to Him,
Cassandra

i've got to brag!

I have some of the best friends in the world. Though I complain about them sometimes and all that it is incredible when I sit back and think about it... So tonite I hung out with Robyn, Manda, Katherine, Randy and Cory. When I think about it, the friendships I have with these people are crazy!

I have known Robyn since I was in gr. 1. She was my first and still is one of my best friends. Growing up we either hated eachothers guts or were best friends and though we don't see each or talk to eachother much...we pick up right where we left off!

Katherine and Manda both I have been hanging out with since I was in Grade 9 or so. These 2 girls rock my world. I love spending time iwth them and they both make me smile. All of Katherine's sexual comments (Where's the paddle Kat?!?!) and Manda's, I don't know...just her self! Its awesome

Than Randy, I havent hung out with him that much at school either this year, but I know that he is always there for me and would be ready to listen. But having him out tonite added a whole different but great dynamic to the group and it made us all laugh....both robyn and Cory was like he has to come out more! It was so cool. Plus I have known Randy too for about 7-8 years

Than Cory... an awesome guy I have been spending a lot of time with! I was scared that my friends might eat him alive but he fended for himself pretty nicely lol. Good times, and I think he actually likes my friends...not sure how or why but he does lol

Tonite was great! We played Rock band for a couple hours than went to Kat's and played Apples to Apples...which I usually hate but actually wanted to play it...guess it reminds me of summer and also girls dorm, which I think I am missing both of... But wow! God has blessed me richely! AMEN

I am Done

IAM DONE I AM DONE... i am done 1/2 of my college years (Scary)

 

 

 

Cassandra

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God is Good

So this past weekend I had my first real experience as a lighting Tech. for a drama! What a blast. I was able to complete a full set up (correctly) by myself which was a huge accomplishment for me! I had a blast working with Richard (The Ogre, as he said. I won't say what JJ called him lol) and also had a blast working with JJ. An experence not soon to be forgotten! Things ran well, for the most part...Saturday, our dinosaur wouldn't turn on (Our lighting computer which is ancient). We were almost to the point of having to get the manual board from Manitou, when through prayer I'm sure, the computer started up! Praise God! We had awesome audiences all weekend. Thursday night we preformed for the school for the Christmas banquet and than Friday for a sold out audience here in Steinbach. Saturday around noon we left for Crystal City and preformed for yet another sold out crowd that laughted at absolutly everything! It was great, the actors feed off of it so much! Saturday night, I was able to go home for the night and go to my home church...always good to be at my home church! Shortly after lunch we headed off to Altona for our final sold out production! This was probably not our best preformance however, it ws a great feeling to be finished! Anyways, i have an exam in the morning that I should go study for!!
Cass

 

 

 

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Whoa breathing time....

Well, here I sit after what I would consider a very well done IMPACT weekend. Don't get me wrong, I love the event but am so thankful it only happens once a year! I am exhausted still! To give you a taste of what IMPACT was for me here is a run down of my schedule since Tuesday.
Wednesday noon: Registration Meeting at lunch, worked on decorations til 230
2:30 drama meeting till 4
4-9 (minus half hour) Decoration making
Thursday Class from 830-1130
1130-12 prayed for IMPACT
12-1 Impact meeting
1-5 Decorating
5-10 lighting
Friday 9-11 tech/lighting
11-12 Drama rehersal/IMPACT Chapel/First run at lights
1230-3 Lights/Tech fixing
3-330 all college prayer meetig
330-630 Registration
7-12 lights/tech/drama/session/move lights/set up lights/ run lights/ take down lights
12-4 7-11 run and stayed up till 4 talking
Saturday 830 Breakfast
9-1030 reset lights/tech
1020-12 Session/lights
1-5 lead service oppurtunity to rest haven
6-9 Tech /session
9-10 clean up
1030....died (well went to bed lol)
So you add all these hours up and well i was in the school for nearly
 Wednesday=10 hours    Thursday=14 hours    Friday=15 hours   Saturday=13 hours
So....52/96 hours in the school in the last 4 days!
 
Next year I am not committing to this much...it became overwhelming at times. Though I learnt that I really love doing lights. It would have been better to have a little better equipment but we made due.  We had over 90 retreats which means IMPACT was full and it was a lot of fun. The girls in dorm were great fun and one highlight was on friday night, about1-230 there was a group of girls in my room and we had 3 acoustic's and 1 bass guitar and about 10 voices singing praises to God. So what we sounded...well brutal at times but we worshipped God. That was one of the few moments I could sit down and just thank God for the weekend. I felt that I didn't have time for that. Because even during sessions/prayer times I was adjusting lights or setting lights for the next thing. During concert of prayer, i couldnt leave my board in risk of blowing a breaker. It was challenging. I feel that I didnt connect much with the retreaters and even less than what I would have liked with my manitou group but ya.
 
God made it apparent to me this weekend that whether I continue on with Stony Brook youth or not, Manitou is not where I am being called back to. Like I felt that I defintly had no pull towards them or anything (one big thing was that they didnt even say good bye before leaving...that hurt). I know my time in Manitou was not wasted but I feel as if I made very little of an impact at the youth there. I guess that is motivation to change my involvement in any youth group I am a leader in in the future.
 
But enough complaining it is a waste of space anyways. So ya. Hope everyone has a good week
Cass

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So do read this entry unless you are willing to listen (i guess read) to me complain. After a really good weekend at home coming back here was hard (Don't think I have ever said that before...). This week is crazy. We have impact this weekend (well starting thursday afternoon with prep) so starting wednesday night I dont get sleep...even tonite will be a late night b/c of caregroups. Last night i was in bed around 11 and slept in this morning (and yes i did miss half of my class but I just didnt feel like getting up quite yet.) I feel really inadequate this week to live up to the expectations I have of my self and also the expectations of others. I am so tired that it is taking a tole on me. If I were to let myself slip right now, I probably would. But I can't, I don't have the time or the energy to recover from a breakdown like what happened a month or so ago. I'm too busy for that. It is tough right now being surrounded by a lot of really awsome people, yet feeling alone and not being to talk to any of them on more  than a shallow level. But that is how my life is right now, well for another 2 weeks before I can talk to Konrad. I miss that guy ouber amounts. I miss being able to vent to him, laugh with him and pray with him. But that is what it is all about right now, whereing the mask of happiness, and togetherness and yet "I'm broken inside".
 
Cassandra

 

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MISSION X NORTH

 

Throughout my 3 years at SBC, each year I have an opportunity to do a missions trip. With being a second year, I get the opportunity to participate in MissionX North from Jan. 14-21. For this mission trip, our class is split up into teams of 3-6 people and placed in a community up north. This January I will be heading up to Grand Rapids with 3 others second years: Tony Bueckert, Matt Macloskie and Allison Friesen.

 

For 2 weeks before heading up north, I will be taking the required course, evangelism, to prepare me for some of the ministry opportunities I will have while I am there. In Grand Rapids, we will be participating in a lot of children and senior's ministry and other opportunities I'm sure.

 

I ask you to pray on a regular basis before and after my trip and daily while I am up North for such things as team and class unity, the ability to learn what we need to know before going, safety while we travel and the opportunity to share God's love with the communities we will be living in.

 

Through the next few months, I will post updates on how our planning is going, more specific prayer requests and hopefully an itinerary so you will fully know what is going on. This is no longer just mine or SBC mission's trip but you are now a part of it if you choose to come along side of me.

 

 

THanks all!

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Suicidal Mice

Well funny story. We still have mice in our dorm. Over fall break I had put out posion in my room (don't worry it dehydrates them so they don't smell if they curl up and die in a wall) in 3 spots. only 1 of them was disturbed. So once everyone got back, I cleaned everything up and ya. I had 3 more packages of it in my drawer under my bed. Well when i was going to bed last night I opened the drawer and noticed everything was slightly "dusty". well i opened up the posion box and half one of the package has been ate! I don't even have to put this posion out, they just help theirselves to their own deaths! I love it!

 

 

 

Cassandra

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Nothing specific to write about so excuse my ramblings today. So within the next few hours, I should be finding out where I am going for MX North! I am so excited and also excited to find out who is in my group. It is so cool to be able to look around at the group of people going and know that no matter who is in my group, things will work. Ya sure there are 2 people I hope are not in my group because of potential akwardness but even that is minor. I am excited!
 
A super cool activity coming up next Friday. TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS national day is next thursday, however we couldn't get that chapel, so on Friday the chapel committee is doing the chapel based around TWLOHA! We even ordered shirts from Hot Topic just for this! I am so excited. If you dont know what TWLOHA is, you should check out the website (http://www.twloha.com). It is an incredible ministry that reaches out to those who are hurting deeply.
 
IMPACT Nov. 21 and 22! If you have a kid or know a kid who is gr. 9 and up! Send them to impact! This weekend at the college is going to be incredible. Our speaker, Sid Koop, is an incredible man of God. Our dramas are hilarous the other one is incredibly powerful! Gives me shivers thinking about it. Everyone should come.
 
This Saturday GOOOOOO BOMBERS GOOOOOOOO!!!!!! It looks like it is going to be freaking freezing on Saturday but that is typically how the weather is for the playoff game or any other bombers game for that matter. It will be interesting because the group i am going with is not typically the group I hang out with. We will see how all that plays out. (Pictures to come on Monday)
 
For all my Manitou readers, I will be in town from wednesday evening next week till sunday evening (with the exception of Friday during the day)! Call me or come visit me, I miss you all.
 
Anyways I have a meeting shortly...the second of four meetings today...this week i have something like 10 or 11 meetings...absolutly crazy it seems!
 
Holding on to Him,
Cassandra

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A Few Verses....

So this afternoon (Which was so nice outside!) I took sometime and did a Solo...Just wanted to share a few verses that became really real to me today.

"The LORD says: these people come near to me with their mouths and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men" Isa. 29:13

"Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the LORD.Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Rom. 12:11-12

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Cor 10:13

Bragging

Ok so after a phone call with Konrad last night, I really got thinking about how incredibly blessed I have been to have him in my life. This guy is a rock. Anyone who can put up with me for everyday for nearly 4 months straight and still answers the phone when I call (most of the time :P) probably deserves a metal or something. Throughout the summer there were times where I could have ripped his head off and became overly frusterated with him (and there was times I nearly did) But he always loved me afterwards. He was always there for me, when things were going tough, he took care of me when I got bucked off Patrick. Even when I wanted to get back on a week later, he wouldnt let me ride. I was so mad at him, but I knew it was because he wanted the best for me. Konrad put up with all my stupid questions about horses and would answer me on my level. My love of horses is defintly accredited to this guy. It has been great to keep in contact with him over the last 2 months since summer and I have loved spending time with him since. To know that I can call him at any time of the day or night to just talk, is incredible and I know that if I was there in person he would give that awesome Konrad hug, which I miss when I am at school. God has sent me an amazing guy to just be friends with! With out his nonsense and crazyness and love and prayers, i know i would have not survived the summer! Thanks Princess Konrad. You mean the world to me!



















Praise Jesus for an amazing friend who always makes me smile even through the tears!

No Voice

No my subject doesn't mean that I have lost my physical voice (though that would be an answer to prayer for some lol). But I feel silent in dorm. I have a hard time believing that I lived here last year too. It has changed so much. There are so many cliques and such a pecking order line in dorm this year. And from what I have heard from guys in both halls, it is the same there as well. So tough. What happened to the whole Koininia (being one) theme. I feel as if i just want to pull back and just retreat into the old me shell. The quiet, not really involved shell. I am trying so hard this year to try to be extroverted and be there for others but that is hard when I feel invisible. There is one guy here at school that is good for making me feel as if I am heard however even today he seemed off. I can't expect him to be there always either. Last year one of my friends told me "the worst way to feel lonely is being surrounded by people". Well welcome to dorm 2008. It has been nearly 2 months and it seems to be getting more clique than open. I guess every year is different, but how do I improve this, how can i change this when I really don't know how much effort to put in. Its challenging.
 
Anyways...Happy Birthday Landis and Jess. Love you both!
Cassandra

 

 

 

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A glimpse into my life

Hey everyone, I thought it might be fun to slack off for a bit and give you a glimpse into my life, my agenda for the next week. PRay for me caz it is crazy!
 
Friday: meeting at lunch for drama/Impact 6pm Youth-Rehersal for our service...i have to pick music for the church service, help with tech, and help direct drama for this
 
Saturday: Suppose to have been going to a youth conference but decided that Saturday should be dedicated to Homework...not to mention it is Landis birthday (hehehehe)
 
Monday: class from 8:30-11:15 and than 1-3:45. 4 page counseling paper due and a 250 page book due, 2 books (one is 142 pages and the other is 200 pages) with each of these books i have to come up with 20 key points
 
Tuesday: class 8:30-11:15 Read Tears of my Soul, 160 pages, read article on forgiveness...10 pages, watch 2 hour long movie, write a 4 page paper on forgiveness
College and careers from 7-10 and care groups from 10-12pm
 
Wednesday Day off! Work 6:30-9 badminton from 9-10
 
Thursday: Class from 830-11:15: 15 pages of theology reading due, Do a word study on three key terms about miracles, and exegesis 3-5 key passages of scripture, write a 750 word key essay on the findings

Friday:I AINT DOING ANYTHING SCHOOL RELATED DAY!!!
 
THE FOLLOWING WEEK-------FALL BREAK. THANK GOODNESS!
 

 

 

 

 

Cassandra

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Thanksgiving!

Well I dont feel like doing homework so I figured I would see if I could make a huge list of things I am thankful for this thanksgiving in no particular order
1)God
2) SBC
3) The people at SBC (Esp. Crystal, Landis, Adrian, Diana, JJ, Chrystie, randy)
3.5) My Family
4) My College and Careers Group, for the way they welcomed me into this incredible "Church"
5) My youth group!~ though i feel as if I have hardly been there, it is such a blessing
6) The fellow leaders at youth; Crystal, JJ, Lynden, Laurie, Mark and Jamie
7) My WBC friends (norm and Net and family, Princess Konrad, Ashley, Reyburn, Bowen)
8) My WBC Horse, Sunny!
9) Pizza Parties in Dorm
10) Watching Disney movies the night before exams!
11) Amazing guy friends who see through my masks
12) My Manitou Friends (Kat, Manda, Robyn)
13) Manitou Youth Group
14) people in general
(which i am going to go into now, and if I Forget you i mean nothing by it...
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Wow where to start...Lets go with girls dorm...
Landis:my amazing CGL and awesome girlfriend who i know is always there for me!
 
Diana: My worst nightmare yet best friend! Our love hate relationship is incredible
 
Crystal: My Ex roomie! And the person who listen to everything i am dealing with and always tells me the stuff I dont really want to hear
 
Alli: THe one I love sticking my tongue> Alli is a great listener and such a blessing. Her smile is contagous!
 
 
Guys Dorm:
JJ: Wow I can't believe I have only known him a month. Wow we have had some crazy times
Randy: Out of most of my guy friends he can read me very well. He has a huge heart for those who are hurting
 
Adrian: Wow A guy on fire for GOD! Such an encouragment and blessing to me!
 
Ben: though we havent talked much this year, i know i can still trust him and turn to him if need be
 
Commuters/Staff
 
Tracee: Someone who I can anything to and a huge prayer warrior!
 
Chrystie: THe staff member i know the most and will always have a smile for me. She has been a huge encouragement to me
 
Dean: I have had a blast getting to know him through school and C and C. Yes, you will one day over take the school
 
Lynden and Laurie: there genorsity is simply amazing! I love working along side of them for youth
 
 
Others:
 
Konrad: This guy has been one of the biggest supports and blessing over the last 5 months. I love you tons Bro!
 
Norm and Net: I guess Norm is kinda in a leadership position at the camp and him and Net were the only full time/camp staff that seemed to really take interest in me and kept checking on my well being this summer
 
James and Darlene: Darlene is another who could see through my mask and they have been a huge blessing to me since leaving school last April. I miss seeing them around the school
 
Cherie: Wow My amazing (And pregnant) Sister! I miss her bunches and can't wait to see her in Mar!
 
Kat and Emmy: My other sister and my wonderfully amazing cute niece!
 
Robyn: I love the way we dont talk for months yet when we do we always pick up from where we left off. Its great
 
Manda: my fellow music buddy! Can't wait to lead worship with you saturday night
 
Friends I get not expectingly...
 
Jess W. Wow I can't believe i have only known you just under a year, yet I love you bunches. I dont know if I ever told you the story behind why i hung out with you and Brit that night but ya its funny. love you bunches girl
 
Evelyn: Who would have guessed that i would have got to know Konrad's sister. I loved going riding with you, harassing K with you and going to prov to see you!
 
 
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Well I may add more to this later but ya thats enough writing for now. time for homework now I suppose... Or plan youth for this weekend! hmm which one sounds the most appealing...grrr neither one really..they both hurt my brain.
 
Cassandra 
 

 

 

 

 

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School

Well school is incredibly stressful right now. The assignment load is so intense. I sometimes wonder if the prof forgot that we have more than just his one class...and I am only taking four courses compared to most peoples 5 or 6. I just don't think i could do it any other way. I can't believe that I had wanted to take my EA course on top of this work load. I would have lost it. I have been doing homework for pretty much the last 3 days none stop, and if I am not doing homework, I am doing stuff for youth. I took a break last night for college and careers which was so good! I absolutely love that group. The laidbackness and just feeling as if I am building some really good and strong relationships there is awesome. Praise God.
 
The mouse situation in dorm is still there. It is rather ridicules if you ask me and I wish I knew how to get something done about it. I have been sleeping in a different room lately because of all this. If i sleep in my room I can't sleep and ya. So not only is this mouse eating our food, it is messing with my sleep and health. This fear i have is so utterly stupid, but i can't control it. TOday i looked in my garbage can and it was lined with mouse crap so i moved thetrap in there and am hoping for some positive results. I will be so glad to sleep in my own bed this weekend.
 
Friday night Bombers Game!! Woot Woot. That is going to be my first taste of fun all week. I am excited for that. It will be an interesting balance and mix of people (if you want me to explain that, just ask me.) I am stoked though!
 
anyways homework screams my name..

 

 

 

Cassandra

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Picture update!

Well here are some random college pictures. I don't usually have acess to the actual blogger site so I can't put up pictures but this weekend i do!

the first picture is me and my roomate Clairssa taken at 2am tuesday morning. Crystal and I had went out with the guys (late) on tuesday night and came back to dorm to be met by Elviene and Dalen (dean of women and the dean of men) at the bottom of the stairs...long story made short, our basement smelt like hot plastic so we had to call the fire department and had 2 trucks, ambulance and police all show up...good times!

The next picture is one of me and the person I love/hate the most. Diana and me have a very intense love/hate relationship. (People who don't know we are joking around with eachother think we actually hate each immesely). She is a great person however and I have loved getting to know her more this year.

The scenic picture is one I took at Steve Larsons place just north of steinbach! The area we were doing a scavenger hunt in was so beautiful and I would have much rather just have taken pictures instead. THe following picture is one of a cray fish shell that Diana found and we gave it to Audrey for her birthday lol. It was an incredible shell.

Andrew, the final picture. At our all college retreat, a challenge was to put an alkaseltzer in your mouth and take a drink of pepsi and keep it in your mouth as long as possible...

Anyways college is going good and i am hoping to get more pics up by the end of the weekend.

Holding on to Him,
Cassandra

 WOw looking back over this past week, I have sensed so many emotions. Last week I started a college and careers group near steinbach and I love it. I love connecting with non-SBC students at least once a week. Don't get me wrong,  I love my SBC family but I need an escape every now and again. There are SBC ties within this group (the leader and one other CandC'er is on staff at SBC but ya).

 

My classes are going really well. Even the ones I didn't like in the beginning are beginning to get interesting. It is hard to believe that I have a midterm exam next week already! For the most I am staying on top of my assignments and working hard on them (I have only done one where I just didn't care about it). For my Interpersonal Process class I had to read the book "The Shack" and OMW it is the most amazing book I have read in a long time. It is an incredibly well written novel and I recommend it to anyone but you must have the time to read it AND think about it because it will make you think!

 

My practicum is also going really well. The youth group I am working with is so different than Manitou. Almost more guys than girls, more sr. than jr highs some nights and mostly churched youth. Very different than the Manitou group. But ya. I am also leading the Praise and WOrship of it every week and I love that. It is forcing me to learn my bass very quickly and I love playing it and leading from it. It is different leading from behind a guitar instead of just from behind a mic.  

This weekend I am heading out to Winkler for the weekend to spend time with a family at the camp and hopefully spend time with my horse o ya and Konrad lol. I am so excited and just can't wait to get out there. I am homesick for the camp and even through all the frustration I had with it through out the summer, it is an incredible place! I love the camp atmosphere.

 

BUt anyways that is a quick update on my life. I will be back in Manitou over thanksgiving weekend and hoping to catch up with people than as well. I miss everyone from there but Steinbach is amazing!  I love the dorm, school and my church! It has  been great getting so involved!

 

Cassandra

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Well... I am so  frustrated with dorm right now. I pay 5000.00+ a year to live here and we still are infested with mice. How retarded. Like I don't know what else they can do but they have got to do something or else I am seriously moving out. I just can't handle it!

Cassandra

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"but those who hope in the LORD
       will renew their strength.
       They will soar on wings like eagles;
       they will run and not grow weary,
       they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:31

 
I am clinging to this verse right now. Clinging to it with a lot of my strength. I feel exhausted an drained. I am not sleeping well at night still because of the mouse incidents and ya, know what, I don't care if you think I am over-freaking out about this situation or that my fear is irrational...deal with it. I am sick of being told this is how I have to do things, I want to be different! I don't want the stereotype label of the Bible College. I want to be different, ruined for the ordinary.

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Hey Everyone, Well I know that it has been awhile since I have updated this however, here is a post. So I have been in steinbach for nearly 2 weeks and it feels like home. It felt like home even before I got here. This years group of first years seems to be more out going than we were last year and seem to be finding their "niches" a lot quicker than we did last year. The one HUGE well small downside to this year has been the issue with mice in dorm. I HATE MICE...did I mention that i FREAKIN HATE MICE! I have this incredibly irrational fear of those little gray, disease infested, beady eyed, long tailed, satanic creatures. OK SO I HATE MICE! We had one in our room the second day of school and for the following week I slept somewhere else. Well about a half an hour ago, I was being the good student I always am, doing homework, (That isn't due for 3 weeks) and I thought I saw something move. But I pretended I didn't and went back to work. Well I looked up again to see a set of beady eyes staring back at me....Needless to say I ran out, went and got traps, set them, grabbed homework and came back to the school. I HATE MICE!
 
Otherwise school has been alight so far. I am only taking 4 classes so less time in the class room than last year, but I am also doing my practicum this year instead of next, which is like Field Ed time 1000. I am really excited for that as I am starting to work with a new youth group here in Steinbach and hoping to really get involved with the church here.
 
But anyways I need to get this assignment done, and than I have youth band practice and than supper than our first youth group of the year! WOOT WOOT! I am so excited and so nervous all at once! Pray for me and the other leaders (lynden and Laurie, Mike and Jaimie Jj and Crystal and myself)
 
Peace out!
Cassandra

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That is what I have felt this weekend time and time again. When I first pulled onto campus on Saturday I just couldn't stop smiling and thinking I was home. Than when I got to Lynden and Laurie's and they got home, I couldn't help thinking "I feel at home". Last night I stopped by the school and got to see a lot my closest friends, I was home. In 20 minutes Crystal and I are leaving for the school to go move in. So excited, so nervous and so pumped. I know there are going to be a lot of changes and I read a few other 2nd's blogs and we all know that and eeeks accept it. I am pumped to have a new group of first years join my SBC family. I can't wait to get to know my new roomate (all I know is that she is a horse lover!) I am nervous for that as well though. All these new people...I have a tendacy to shut down and shut up and not share or be open with new people. Pray that that would not happen. I want to be real with these people and I want them to see the genuine human side of Cassandra. Well after this post they could be sparce because I can't get Blog in dorm but we will see what happens. Please pray for me as I adapt to all these changes and pray that this year would ROCK!

I know that this blog has been getting th shaft lately as I have only done what 2 entries but this makes 3 and 3 is better than none right? If you don't feel like listening to me vent right now you might as well stop reading...now. lol.

So Camp life is awesome! I love it! I love the people (more so the guys, I dont connect that great with the girls, surprise (not))! I love the horses (even if they are super old), I love everything I am learing! I love the people I am able to reconnect with. However even with all these "loves" I feel stressed out so much.

I really realized tonight that I am burned out, Esp. when it comes to youth. I am frusterated with the way some things are being done and would love to change things but why would I do that now with not knowing if I am back next year right? That is another huge decision weighing on my shoulders. Do I commit for youth next year? Am I in it for the right reasons? So many questions.

I am not even all sure what is stressing me out to the point of where I am. There are a few other things that I can't post on here because they deal with people who I believe are following my blogs. But with all these little problems pileing up, I feel trapped and weighed down. I feel like my eyes are above water and thats it. It is incredibly tough having all the people I am use to going to to vent a phone call or email away and not just down the hall or next door. Under 80 days until that is back however!

But ya, God is good, and he is carrying me right now because if He was not, I would have fallen a long time ago!
Cassandra

Why is it called the funny bone?

Well my left arm is out of commission for a couple days...my brother decided to lose it with me and in the process of protecting my head and restraining his wrists, I somehow managed to twisted my elbow...so after a few ho urs in ER, I can't move my arm and am waiting on a sling. it is getting too heavy to always support on its own and because of that, I cant go walking or rollarblading right now because there is absolutly no support.

Well Sunday/Monday begins my adventure at Winkler Bible Camp. I am really excited about it! I know quite a few of the staff there and quite a few of them are from SBC so it will be great to see them again. I am excited. However I am going to be stuck doing office work and such because of my arm but whatever. I'll live.

"Praise the LORD, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. " My theme verse right now. I am holding onto it for all its worth because I am feeling really discouraged. This whole arm injury thing really sucks and has affected my sleep or lack their of and am just ready to be at camp serving God, surrounded by Christians. I miss my Christian bubble at SBC but I realize that their is also a real world so ya.

Cassandra

Thoughts and Musings Entry #1

Is it possible for me to be homesick for some place that technically is not home? I miss SBC/ Steinbach so much and tonite I realized how much of a part of my life it really is and how important my friends at school.

Tonight I realized that I am bestfriendless right now, or so it seems. After the choir concert (which was really good) I went to the church and jammed with Manda and Rob, 2 people who at one point within the last year were my best friends and now, it was just weird. The only thing that held me together tonite was knowing that we were unifed because we were all worshipping the same God through our Praise and Worship we were playing (It was cool b/c Manda was on accoustic, I was on Bass and Rob was on electric).

My best friends are seriously all over the world right now. I have one of my friends in the Dominican Republic. I didnt realize how amazing she truely was till I didnt have her just a text message away. She is such a huge support to me and to not have her right there has been challenging. Than 2 out of 3 of my group (Crystal and Ben) are out west somewhere. I miss them so much. I have MSN Crystal a few times, but Ben is never on which really sucks, I can't wait till he is back in MB so we can text, I really miss talking in the evenings and saying good night. Than the third member of our gang is in Belize right now, with 11 other guys. It sounds like they are having a blast and I have loved talking to Matt through MSN/FB lately. But it is just not the same as in person.

Tonite I realized how much I love my SBC friends, how much I miss them, and how much God has blessed me through them!

Cassandra