Struggles and Perfection

Today I feel like writing. I feel like putting all my thoughts and emotions onto paper (well computer). Yet the words stop somewhere between my brain and my fingers.

I sit here and look out my living room window the most white beatiful ground covering ever. Than I get shivers. I get shivers not because it is cold in my house but because it is so beautiful. The good shivers. The shivers that remind me that God created it. So white and pure, just like Him. Love getting little reminders, something as simple as snow, that remind me that God is perfect and that everything he does is perfect.

This is my struggle. My struggle is how is God perfect and everything he has created is perfect yet there is so much pain.

I live in a house where things don't always work right, where things break. My husband and I arguee and say things we should not. A house where our dog is not perfect by any shot of the imagination. Why does God allow this suffering?

I work at place where I often see things I dont want to. Staff telling clients "your the first person I see in the morning, and the last person I want to see". I work in a place where people get forgotten about for over an hour while using the washroom. I work in a place that there is a lot of hurt. Why does God allow this suffering?

I live in a city where drinking and driving is such a huge issue. In a city where the high school has to have camara's for personal safety. A city where drugs is an everyday occurances. Why does God allow this suffering?

I live in a world filled with war. A world filled with violence, hatred and predjudice. A world where everyone is so incredible self absorbed that they dont see their neighbor struggling to survive. Why does God allow this suffering?

It is in the dark times we grow. It is when we leave the valley that we see the incredible light. It is the struggles that we grow through to become stronger. But we must become so weak that this quote becomes true.

As long as your own abilities are sufficient to rise to the challenge, you will never understand that He doesn't just give strength. He is your Strength. In the breaking process, God has no intention of helping you get stronger. He wants you to become so weak that He can express Himself as the strength you need in every situation." - Steve McVay

All these challenges and struggles I face around me everyday need to be my reminder to become "so weat that He can express Himself as the Strength I need in every situation".

God is Perfect, He is perfect through our pain and our struggles. PRAISE GOD