Its been awhile since I posted anything specific. However I want to share today...
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".
Now typically, I hear this verse and think nothing of it. However, I Have heard this verse over and over again and it has been hitting my like a bulldozer lately.
How incredible is it that God knows our plans? I struggle with this thought though. If God knows my plans, why can he not reveal this? I have been struggling more than people realize lately. My question has been "If GOd knows the desires of my heart, and I belive that God put the desires there, why am I still waiting".
My husband and I decided very early on in our marriage that we wanted kids...after a year of trying, we are no further ahead. HOwever in that year, I have seen numerous teenagers get pregnent. It hurts.
My brother in law and his very young girlfriend had a baby a couple weeks ago...this hurt me. I know it was not to spite us, or hurt us. However it is so tough. Everyone (more than normal) is asking us when are we going to have kids or when is it our turn. I wish people knew how much these comments devistated me.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".
If our desire is so strongly to have children why is it not in GOd's plans for now? I just dont get it.However, I take so much comfort in this verse, very few people understand my pain right now, even if they claim they do, you don't! So for now...
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".
About Me
- Cassandra
- First off, I am a child of God. One who struggles, yet overcomes. One who feels weary, yet fulfilled. One who deals a lot with finding out who I truely am, yet I am loved!
2 comments:
Cass, I know that you say that nobody understands how you are feeling, and what you are going through, in regards to pregnancy, but I think that I do understand a snip-it. (I could quote you quite a few diary entries) I hope that you are able to find some comfort, whether it be from God, and/or from friends. I know that it can truly hurt to see unwanted, and even termintated pregnancies, when you are desiring one so intensely. Love you always.
I can't perhaps understand the want for a child, but I definitely thought I'd found the man I was going to spend my life with. To have God show me how wrong I was has been an intensely difficult journey, but thank you very much for the reminder that God knows what His divine plans are for us <3
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