I know that this blog has been getting th shaft lately as I have only done what 2 entries but this makes 3 and 3 is better than none right? If you don't feel like listening to me vent right now you might as well stop reading...now. lol.

So Camp life is awesome! I love it! I love the people (more so the guys, I dont connect that great with the girls, surprise (not))! I love the horses (even if they are super old), I love everything I am learing! I love the people I am able to reconnect with. However even with all these "loves" I feel stressed out so much.

I really realized tonight that I am burned out, Esp. when it comes to youth. I am frusterated with the way some things are being done and would love to change things but why would I do that now with not knowing if I am back next year right? That is another huge decision weighing on my shoulders. Do I commit for youth next year? Am I in it for the right reasons? So many questions.

I am not even all sure what is stressing me out to the point of where I am. There are a few other things that I can't post on here because they deal with people who I believe are following my blogs. But with all these little problems pileing up, I feel trapped and weighed down. I feel like my eyes are above water and thats it. It is incredibly tough having all the people I am use to going to to vent a phone call or email away and not just down the hall or next door. Under 80 days until that is back however!

But ya, God is good, and he is carrying me right now because if He was not, I would have fallen a long time ago!
Cassandra