Whoa breathing time....

Well, here I sit after what I would consider a very well done IMPACT weekend. Don't get me wrong, I love the event but am so thankful it only happens once a year! I am exhausted still! To give you a taste of what IMPACT was for me here is a run down of my schedule since Tuesday.
Wednesday noon: Registration Meeting at lunch, worked on decorations til 230
2:30 drama meeting till 4
4-9 (minus half hour) Decoration making
Thursday Class from 830-1130
1130-12 prayed for IMPACT
12-1 Impact meeting
1-5 Decorating
5-10 lighting
Friday 9-11 tech/lighting
11-12 Drama rehersal/IMPACT Chapel/First run at lights
1230-3 Lights/Tech fixing
3-330 all college prayer meetig
330-630 Registration
7-12 lights/tech/drama/session/move lights/set up lights/ run lights/ take down lights
12-4 7-11 run and stayed up till 4 talking
Saturday 830 Breakfast
9-1030 reset lights/tech
1020-12 Session/lights
1-5 lead service oppurtunity to rest haven
6-9 Tech /session
9-10 clean up
1030....died (well went to bed lol)
So you add all these hours up and well i was in the school for nearly
 Wednesday=10 hours    Thursday=14 hours    Friday=15 hours   Saturday=13 hours
So....52/96 hours in the school in the last 4 days!
 
Next year I am not committing to this much...it became overwhelming at times. Though I learnt that I really love doing lights. It would have been better to have a little better equipment but we made due.  We had over 90 retreats which means IMPACT was full and it was a lot of fun. The girls in dorm were great fun and one highlight was on friday night, about1-230 there was a group of girls in my room and we had 3 acoustic's and 1 bass guitar and about 10 voices singing praises to God. So what we sounded...well brutal at times but we worshipped God. That was one of the few moments I could sit down and just thank God for the weekend. I felt that I didn't have time for that. Because even during sessions/prayer times I was adjusting lights or setting lights for the next thing. During concert of prayer, i couldnt leave my board in risk of blowing a breaker. It was challenging. I feel that I didnt connect much with the retreaters and even less than what I would have liked with my manitou group but ya.
 
God made it apparent to me this weekend that whether I continue on with Stony Brook youth or not, Manitou is not where I am being called back to. Like I felt that I defintly had no pull towards them or anything (one big thing was that they didnt even say good bye before leaving...that hurt). I know my time in Manitou was not wasted but I feel as if I made very little of an impact at the youth there. I guess that is motivation to change my involvement in any youth group I am a leader in in the future.
 
But enough complaining it is a waste of space anyways. So ya. Hope everyone has a good week
Cass

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So do read this entry unless you are willing to listen (i guess read) to me complain. After a really good weekend at home coming back here was hard (Don't think I have ever said that before...). This week is crazy. We have impact this weekend (well starting thursday afternoon with prep) so starting wednesday night I dont get sleep...even tonite will be a late night b/c of caregroups. Last night i was in bed around 11 and slept in this morning (and yes i did miss half of my class but I just didnt feel like getting up quite yet.) I feel really inadequate this week to live up to the expectations I have of my self and also the expectations of others. I am so tired that it is taking a tole on me. If I were to let myself slip right now, I probably would. But I can't, I don't have the time or the energy to recover from a breakdown like what happened a month or so ago. I'm too busy for that. It is tough right now being surrounded by a lot of really awsome people, yet feeling alone and not being to talk to any of them on more  than a shallow level. But that is how my life is right now, well for another 2 weeks before I can talk to Konrad. I miss that guy ouber amounts. I miss being able to vent to him, laugh with him and pray with him. But that is what it is all about right now, whereing the mask of happiness, and togetherness and yet "I'm broken inside".
 
Cassandra

 

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MISSION X NORTH

 

Throughout my 3 years at SBC, each year I have an opportunity to do a missions trip. With being a second year, I get the opportunity to participate in MissionX North from Jan. 14-21. For this mission trip, our class is split up into teams of 3-6 people and placed in a community up north. This January I will be heading up to Grand Rapids with 3 others second years: Tony Bueckert, Matt Macloskie and Allison Friesen.

 

For 2 weeks before heading up north, I will be taking the required course, evangelism, to prepare me for some of the ministry opportunities I will have while I am there. In Grand Rapids, we will be participating in a lot of children and senior's ministry and other opportunities I'm sure.

 

I ask you to pray on a regular basis before and after my trip and daily while I am up North for such things as team and class unity, the ability to learn what we need to know before going, safety while we travel and the opportunity to share God's love with the communities we will be living in.

 

Through the next few months, I will post updates on how our planning is going, more specific prayer requests and hopefully an itinerary so you will fully know what is going on. This is no longer just mine or SBC mission's trip but you are now a part of it if you choose to come along side of me.

 

 

THanks all!

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Suicidal Mice

Well funny story. We still have mice in our dorm. Over fall break I had put out posion in my room (don't worry it dehydrates them so they don't smell if they curl up and die in a wall) in 3 spots. only 1 of them was disturbed. So once everyone got back, I cleaned everything up and ya. I had 3 more packages of it in my drawer under my bed. Well when i was going to bed last night I opened the drawer and noticed everything was slightly "dusty". well i opened up the posion box and half one of the package has been ate! I don't even have to put this posion out, they just help theirselves to their own deaths! I love it!

 

 

 

Cassandra

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Nothing specific to write about so excuse my ramblings today. So within the next few hours, I should be finding out where I am going for MX North! I am so excited and also excited to find out who is in my group. It is so cool to be able to look around at the group of people going and know that no matter who is in my group, things will work. Ya sure there are 2 people I hope are not in my group because of potential akwardness but even that is minor. I am excited!
 
A super cool activity coming up next Friday. TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS national day is next thursday, however we couldn't get that chapel, so on Friday the chapel committee is doing the chapel based around TWLOHA! We even ordered shirts from Hot Topic just for this! I am so excited. If you dont know what TWLOHA is, you should check out the website (http://www.twloha.com). It is an incredible ministry that reaches out to those who are hurting deeply.
 
IMPACT Nov. 21 and 22! If you have a kid or know a kid who is gr. 9 and up! Send them to impact! This weekend at the college is going to be incredible. Our speaker, Sid Koop, is an incredible man of God. Our dramas are hilarous the other one is incredibly powerful! Gives me shivers thinking about it. Everyone should come.
 
This Saturday GOOOOOO BOMBERS GOOOOOOOO!!!!!! It looks like it is going to be freaking freezing on Saturday but that is typically how the weather is for the playoff game or any other bombers game for that matter. It will be interesting because the group i am going with is not typically the group I hang out with. We will see how all that plays out. (Pictures to come on Monday)
 
For all my Manitou readers, I will be in town from wednesday evening next week till sunday evening (with the exception of Friday during the day)! Call me or come visit me, I miss you all.
 
Anyways I have a meeting shortly...the second of four meetings today...this week i have something like 10 or 11 meetings...absolutly crazy it seems!
 
Holding on to Him,
Cassandra

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